AIDS Day

I thought I'd start out by saying RIP to those children, women and men who have lost their fight against AIDS. People aren't knowing enough about AIDS, so the judge many people with the disease. I'd like to let you know that some people are actually born with AIDS. For those people born with AIDS, they might not be able to get the proper treatment to stay alive, like little children. Unlike Canada, in the US we have to pay for healthcare and in Africa most to none can't afford medication so we have to help.

Join United Nations Programme on HIV/AIDS or buy a (RED) product from Gap, Apple, or Nike. Join (RED) on twitter and facebook!!!!!!

Product (RED) helps fight AIDS in Africa.

Act against AIDS- over 1 million people in the US are living with HIV

Please be aware! Testing today is FREE.

Alicia Keys benefit concert is tonight on her official YouTube channel.

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Weakening

Guess its been a while since I've blogged about anything with meaning and I try to stay as far away from personal that I can but sometimes you just can't help it. I've been through points in my life where I've found myself so weak, to the point where I just wanted to die. Instead of killing myself I just started drinking, popping pills, sipping lean and smoking weed heavily again, like I did when I was a kid. The disease is coming back. I can't come to grips with myself, and I never have anyone in my life that wants to stay by my side and help. You never know what someone is going through, unleSs they tell you or you ask. Just because someone might try to seem happy doesn't mean they are. I know for sure that I'm not happy. No where near and will never be. I have one of the greatest positions in life, but I'm not happy with myself. I'm self conscious and it causes a lot of insecurities. I know how Shakir Stewart felt. R.I.P

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R.I.P To A True King

Michael Jackson - Human Nature (Live performance '87)
1958-2009

Jai, Fendi, Jerrell

Welcoming

Yesterday, my family welcomed a little pure breed Yorkie puppy, named Fendi, into our home. I drove an hour and a half to the middle of no where to get this little fella from a breeder. He's so quiet and real sweet and loving, he likes to be under someone all the time. If he isn't he's whimpering. He almost made it through the night sleeping at the foot of the bed but I was afraid that I would kick him off the bed so he had to go back into the box. He did find his way between Inayah and myself before he got in the box.

Today, I woke up early to let him go use the bathroom and to feed him. He drunk a little water but he wouldn't eat any food at all. I even tried to put it in his mouth, he wouldn't take it. I would think he'd eat something since he threw up so much on the ride home (I'll admit, for such a little pup, that was a long way).

As of right now, I'm trying to teach my son how to take care of Fendi. He wanted Fendi in his bed while he watched tv, so I let him. I had to explain to him that he can't leave the puppy alone, after he jumped up and left him on the bed while he went downstairs to eat. He now knows after sitting for a while we have to take Fendi downstairs to use the bathroom on the puppy pad. Wish it wasn't raining right now or I'd have him outside using the bathroom, but I'm glad he smelt the pad and pee'd right on it. YES!

I wish the dog wasn't scared and would do some things on his own! Maybe like get in and out of his bed.

What do you do...

When you want somebody so bad, and love them to death but they can't do ONE thing to completely satisfy you? One thing that would make everything 100% right. Even though you know how much that person loves you, or you think... Why is it so easy to fall for some people but harder to fall out once you fall in? What about false hope? Or giving you confusing signals. I'm just babbling on, don't know what else to say or what else to think. Maybe I'll write more later on... Take it easy.

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